LOST

“Wherever you are is called Here,
And you must treat it as a powerful stranger…”

― David Wagoner

Right now I am trying to live in here and now, but I find it hard because I have no support system to believe in my hopes and dreams. I spend my days creating content for my business when I am not running errands, helping my kids with homework, planning a lesson plan for Bible study or something – I really have no life outside of my kids. I have no friends here of my own like I do back home that know my story.

It is easy to get caught up in Pinterest and I can spend hours on finding things to put on my boards or use as content for my Younique or Chloe+Isabel businesses.  I find the recesses of my mind comforting and sometimes dark – the darkness has become a very good friend to me. I find myself talking to my Grams or to Mek in my dreams wondering what Heaven is like… Asking about family and friends that I have lost along the way. I look in the mirror and glint and glitter in my eyes are gone and at the moment I notice that I don’t talk to God as much as I used too.

I need to find my way home in my mind, heart, and soul…I need to find my way back to talking to God so that get peace beyond understanding. #brokencrayonstillcolor however this one at the nub to where if you use it one more time it will disappear altogether.