I want to say yes to

MANIFESTO

“Cherish your solitude. Take trains by yourself to places you have never been. Sleep out alone under the stars. Learn how to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back. Say no when you don’t want to do something. Say yes if your instincts are strong, even if everyone around you disagrees.

Decide whether you want to be liked or admired. Decide if fitting in is more important than finding out what you’re doing here.

Believe in kissing.

― Eve Ensler

I want to say yes to finishing my masters degree in education, building my dream home in (plantation style home), with a rose garden, and veggie garden. Celebrating 20 yrs with my husband and renewing our vows. I enjoy sitting in my office reading, watching tv, writing, creating content for my boutiques.

I would love for him to just once kiss my forehead and say something really sweet. Or find a babysitter and take me on date  to someplace nice where have to get dressed up and go to dinner after and maybe a movie. Perhaps go for a few weeks without blowing up at me or the kids. PTSD aside I think he is becoming like his dad and repressing some of his emotions therefore – solitude is my only friend here.  I have to wonder if moving here was to separate me from family and friends back home. I doubt it, but sometimes you never really know.

He has a good hear but he like I is bit jaded due to being hurt in the past. But I have never been one to lash out for no reason or  just curse in front of my  mom or kids. For that matter at all. #greatdad #goodboyscout #goodmechanic He does seek help and he does care. I do love him…

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