“It may be that when we no longer know what to do,
we have come to our real work
and when we no longer know which way to go,
we have begun our real journey.”
— Wendell Berry
I am trying here to be grateful for all that he does for us on a daily basis. Trust me he does he best and I don’t want to just be tedious and list the same thing over and over because nothing else comes to mind. This is where the tire hits the road. We have been together for 13 years now and I guess I have become jaded to the fact that he has never been home long enough to be appreciated fully.
He is retired from the US Army so he was either deployed or in the field. He was is a licensed preacher so he was either at church after work. So he was never home either way. I have to learn to forgive him for the way the treats me when his PTSD kicks into overdrive! I have not gotten that far yet, but I have prayed for a forgiving heart where this issue is concerned. I know that he had no control over his orders, but he did over what he did after work. Especially, since we have 3 kids together and should have been raising together.
He does take them to the park when he is dead tired after work, he is a lifelong Boy Scout and enjoys taking our twin boys to Tiger Scouts, likes helping our kids with homework projects, does the laundry, cooks a great gumbo, he great at camping, knows a lot of “useless” trivia would make a great Jeopardy party
I pray for passion and joy in our lives and marriage that we used to have to regained again. #passion #renewvows #renewlove #reviveourmarriage